I chase(d) a lot of attention- from women, to peers, to internet followers. Once I got the attention, I convinced myself it wasn't enough, or the right type of attention. What I was doing was setting myself up for failure by downplaying all the good things that were happening to me. What I eventually realized was that no outside attention or accomplishments would make me feel good about myself, if I didn't already feel good about myself. I didn't like who I was, and I thought "winning" over other people would make me feel better, instead it made me think less of the people I won over, for being lame enough to pay me any mind.

We hate being alone, because we don't enjoy being in our own company, and some of us can run from that our entire lives, but we'd be better off to stop running. Doing challenging things will make us feel better about ourselves, and then we won't chase the fixes the world tells us we need (we probably were taught that we need to be special by someone selling us something). I need to be a source of love, instead of a thirst trap for it. Once I can love myself more, I can share that love more, and attract more wonderfulness into my life. It's not a foolproof plan, but there isn't a better more sustainable way. Chasing it all from the outside leaves us oddly hollow; you know what I'm talking about. Focus on your relationship with yourself, and see how your relationships with others will blossom. #BLESS

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